Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Final Blog

i am graduating, so this really probably will be my final blog. at the end of next week i will be going straight to work as a college graduate. but i plan to go get my masters next fall, after i get some money together. but i found that i don't really need a direction or plans to get through and even enjoy life. what happens will happen and i must simply "fare forward." after all theres nothing worth doing that isn't worth the trouble of doin it.

now for the magic words...





Wake up!

riverrun

the recitation was a blast! those of you who did not come missed out. the movie wasn't quite what i was expecting but i love the way all the lines came together and just were... mesmerizing. hope to get a copy!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010












various images, oroborus, phoenix, black crow, white swan, rose cross peacock

i couldn't find any good pelican images sorry

Tempest

Illusion or reality.

Shaman Sexson says the storm never happens, it's not real. but it is because the sailors believe it is. you can't say something isn't real just because you don't believe in it. prospero may have made an illusory storm but it was a real storm to those out in it.

this may be semantics but just because i dont' believe in god doesn't mean he's not real.

explanation

i don't think i ever explained whay i named by blog what i did.

first off Alexandria was home to the greatest library of it's time. when it supposedly burned we lost a good chunk of knowledge and history that can never be recovered. thus we mourn it (wake), wake is also refering to what happenes after Alexandria, a new history is writtenhappeningtold.

also refers to FW as the language of Babel as Alexandria held most of the world's knowledge and languages.

Old blogs

You did tell us to revisit past blogs so here's one from oral traditions

Lists.

Fin again..

i suppose i shall end this brief trip into oral traditions on a more pleasant note. "a world of sound and sound alone" His dark materials, seven liberal arts, nine muses, fifty discrete items, parataxis, flyting, Finnegans wake, mememoreme, Remember Me, epithets,memory theatre, repetition, Nietzsche, Lull, immortality, ineluctable modality, the grotesque, the unfrequented church, esoteric, Yates, cliche, pathetic fallacy, w.r. Ong, nine necessities, memory, imagination, soul, Kane, tradition, drums in the deep, the god in me, the god i am, Aristotle, Plato, Freud, Jung, anamnesis, recollection of the forgotten, alithiometer, gnosticism, neoplatainism, hamlet, Krishna, bagavagita, Augustine, myth, literature, simonedes, rhetoric, Shahar Azad/sherezade, collective/personal unconscious, solipsistic, grammar/grimoire, "inspired gibberish", Lolita, three taps upon the tongue, carnival-carne val- carne- flesh, names, words, power, magic, tempest...
Gossamer Von Goss, Mnemosyne

it shall not come to pass, it shall not end

this right here tells me how much crossover my classes have

Language of FW

i've probably said this before but i think the language of FW is the languae of Babel. you can't translate this book well, if at all. and it reads like pure nonsense. which is universal. after all they don't call it babble for nothing.

FW

things i memorized

"we pass through grass, behush the bush to. whish! a gull. gulls far calls, coming far. end here, us then, fin again. take bussoftlee, memeorme. til thousendsthee. the keys to. given. away a lone a last a loved along the... riverrun past eve and adams by swerve of shore and bend of bay brings us by a commodius vicus of recirculation back to howth castle and environs.
sir tristram, violer d'amore, f'over the short sea, had passencore rearrived from north amorica on this side of the scraggy isthmus of europe minor to wielder fight his penisolate war.

lave a whale a while in a wheel barrow (isn't it the truath i'm tellin ye)to have fins and flippers that shimmy and shake. tim timmycan timped her tampting tam. fleppery! flippity! fleapow! hop!

and i don't understand a word of it.

essay from another class on Kenosis

Bloom’s Kenosis and the Defeat

Kenosis. Emptiness, to empty oneself. Jesus may have made himself nothing but the rest of humanity does not seem to be able to do so. People ramble about nonsense and sense and babble and ramble. People never seem to never have something to say. But this is not about having nothing to say, this is about bloody Bloom and his bloody ideas. This is about kenosis and the fact that Bloom makes me want to slam my head through a wall. This is about me making Bloom look like a meaningless moron who talks to make himself feel better. It probably will not happen but I am going to try. I may not have this theory thing down pat but I think I have enough of an idea to work with it.
Though I might not.
Now, I am going to do something that is likely to get this paper thrown out immediately, or burned on sight. It is entirely unforgivable in the eyes of the learned officials; I am going to quote Wikipedia. Yes, I know, it is not a reliable source of information. You know what? I. Do not. Care. I can quote who and whatever I want, even if they are wrong, or morons, or if it is sheer nonsense. Besides Wikipedia is a useful source for at least general information. It might not be entirely accurate but it will have enough accuracy or a warning if it is not cited. Wikipedia is not a bad thing, it is just not a acceptable source of information for the collegiate world.
Anyway, kenosis according to Wikipedia:
In literary aesthetics, the term Kenosis also refers to the affect (feeling) experienced by the reader of lyric or poetry forms. It is the experience of the emptying of the ego-personality of the reader into the immediate sensory manipulation of poetics. In this sense, kenosis inflicts an experience of timelessness upon the reader. The term is often contrasted with catharsis (which is the affect created by drama) and kairosis which is the affect created by novels.
A very basic description of kenosis according to Wikipedia. Although I generally use the word vastness or cosmicality, yes I know it is not a word I do not think, instead of “timelessness” though that applies as well. Removing the ego, I, draining it away is bound to make one feel insignificant when laid up against all that, the flotsam and jetsam, that makes up the universe, the sheer weight of the years that have come before you and the years that will follow after your death are innumerable and heavy in a strange way. They weigh on the soul. It is easy to say one has importance on the small scale but once the ego has stepped back that self-importance disappears and a person can be crushed by the incomprehensible All.
However, we need to move on.
Back to the essay. The description is useful, practical and it gives a general idea as to where this is going.. Yes, we are going to discuss kenosis, especially kenosis and Harold Bloom. Bloom is one of the densest writers I have ever read, and I do not mean he has a thick skull. You can get the general idea of what he is saying but then it all goes slipping down the rabbit hole as your brain melts into a puddle of well boiled goo. It is not fun. With half remembered references, extensive quotes, and no clear cut explanations Bloom will lead the reader in a circle without ever getting to the point. At least that is the way it seems to me. The man never says anything straight out and I do not know if he is just doing it to mess with my head or if he is expecting me to know all the crazy stuff he is talking about. He is certainly writing to a specific audience, but oh, well. On with the essay.
So Bloom focuses on kenosis as opposed to catharsis and kairosis, because he focuses on poetry. However he is not only reading poetry, he is also reading novels and drama. Why kenosis? Perhaps he believes that all good literature is poetry.
At any rate, we were discussing Bloom’s little “revisionary ratios,” his third one to be more specific, kenosis. Bloom claims it to be a “discontinuity” between the precursor and the new poet. The new poet while swerving must not only appear to humble himself but drain out his precursor’s own inspiration as well, thus making the precursor’s work empty of meaning and inspiration. The author, in someway or another, takes the precursors work, repeats it, removes all meaning and inspiration from the precursor’s poem all the while writing a better poem than his precursor ever could. That could be difficult.
Samuel Beckett comes to mind. Sucking stones, shudder. Though at the same time the pages and words he gives us are utterly fascinating. They mesmerize even as the negate themselves and remove all meaning from the pages. Joyce and Beckett, opposites yet not. Joyce will hand you everything, even muck, and make it gold even as he is taking it all away. Beckett will hand you gold and make it meaningless. Beckett characters do something, or see something and then, maybe not. Maybe they did not see or hear something because it did not exist, or it does not exist anymore because he has removed its meaning, removed it from existence by negating it. He did, and he did not. Paradoxical, no?
How in the world do you do that? Apparently there is a good dose of humility, self-assurance, and creativity involved plus a good dollop of repetition. The poet rides the line that will make him cease to exist, will destroy him as a poet. He must err in order to be a poet, even if that error destroys him. He must live outside of time and in eternal darkness and torment; this is where a poet exists even in his greatest moments writing his greatest works. This poet, a strong poet will take his precursor’s poem write it , write it better and burn his precursor to ash and his immortality to dust. Then he will take the ash and ingest it, making it part of him, but not him in entirety, no merely the little echo in the back of your head that comments on you work. The Id, perhaps? Why, yes, Bloom agrees, that is the Id. It is that part of a person that is not the person themselves, it is the part of ourselves that demands out basic needs be met, perhaps some would call it instinct. What the Id wants, it gets. The Id demands of the poet that his works be great because that too is a basic need. If the poet fails in that need, he cannot claim the Id of his precursor, but the other precursors that he has claimed will call it failure and the poet will starve. Both literally and figuratively.
No poet is a repeat of another, not even with taking in the precursor as I have suggested happens above, but that is what they want. Those repeats are a form of immortality, like offspring. A person has a child instinctively to continue the race as a whole, personally they wish to hand something down for future generations even if it is only a few scraps of DNA. They wish to have something to love that will outlast them and eventually outdo them in so many ways. Parents, too, have a form of this immortality, and like poets, they will be remembered for their skills and the love that they put into their darlings. Perhaps poets, like parents, want their offspring to be successful even overtaking and surpassing them.
For the more Greco-Freudian portions that happen in this particular portion of Bloomian theory I have only this to say: Freud would say kill your father and take his place as god-king, Bloom would say kill you father, take his place, and be a better god-king than he could have ever hoped to be.
And we move on. Humans like repetition. It is a pattern and human minds latch onto patters like ticks on deer. These repetitions are ticks themselves. They’ll drain you of your blood and leave a nasty disease behind, that will eventually cripple if not out right kill you. There are no cures and the treatments do not always work and generally make you wish you had died anyway. Bloom is like that himself, a nasty case of Lyme disease, or maybe Rocky Mountain spotted tick fever. Yes, both disease cause severe symptoms leaving one weakened if not crippled for years.
I am comparing Bloom to a tick… wow. And getting away with it.
Back to repetition. Repeated patterns draw attention. Even Bloom has his patterns, his name dropping; Blake, Emerson, Shakespeare, Freud, etc. etc. Yet, in his idea of kenosis he means the poet to undo everything ever written (if he goes back far enough in his father complex and pushes hard enough), to make it all meaningless. The poet appears to humble himself, yet remains full assured, yet there is some humility in the act as he not only humbles himself but in humbling his precursor completely crushes their precursors and so on and so forth.
In order to humble the precursor the poet must remove the faults that his precursor had. He must remove them not only from the poetry but from the offspring poet, himself, as well. That father, whose ashes you took into yourself, you must now remove the parts that hold his faults from your self, that part of you that is him must be burned again and must be separated, him from you. It is not longer part of you but a part of him and a poor and pathetic part at that. I suppose it would be a bit like genetic engineering, but instead of starting before conception your starting in the middle of your life, I am not sure that is even possible. Maybe gene therapy. Hmm…
I got sidetracked again, go figure. Back to kenosis. Bloom refers to kenosis as an isolating act. That the poet isolates himself, gives himself a look over, isolates a faulty part and then cuts it off, humbling himself, even as he out does his precursor. But not cutting it off as in removing it entirely. No, I mean cutting off as in keeping it but never acknowledging it. Like a pet cactus. You do not touch it, rarely, if ever, water it or glance at it. You just let it sit and grow. Or shrivel up for want of company and care. So it is really a form of neglect towards the self. So very confusing.
Appearances. Need to clear up, appear humble but do not be humble, but make sure your precursor is humbled. How to do that? How should I know, I am not a poet! But apparently kenosis is about being not what you appear to be. But it is about making your precursor not what he was, and his poetry not was it meant. So it becomes an undoing as if it had never happened in the first place. Apparently this entire thing is about being not. Not good, not strong, not memorable and definitely not meaningful.
Strong poets must believe in themselves, in a cause, or at the very least that they are working towards something greater than themselves, that their entire existence is not wasted and useless. Perhaps useless is not the word, more lacking meaning. Though I suppose if one can find meaning in a grain of sand one can, in fact, find it anywhere. But it is not just meaning, it is beauty. There must be a beauty to the poet’s works as well. There must be something in the poem that can catch the reader and drag them in by the throat and then throw them out in a heap of utter emotional upheaval. I do not necessarily mean upheaval as in crying and weepy or raging or cheery. I mean one must be affected by the works in some manner, must react in someway.
Bloom in his twists and turns and general feeling of that fact that you swear he is trying to confuse you, which he is and you are, leaves the reader with melted brains and only the vaguest of general ideas. I cannot help but wonder at his meanings and wanderings.
My personal views on kenosis are a bit simpler and more along the lines of the unfortunate Wikipedia article. In action, kenosis, begets a response from the reader causing an emotional upheaval. Throughout the reading this upheaval rises and tenses until the climax of the piece where it is then drained completely from the reader, leaving them empty and feeling somewhat insignificant. It is almost despairing, yet at the same time something of an objective apathy. There is nothing left to the reader to be emotional over due to the fact that all emotions have been drained of energy and inspiration. It is, I suppose, like running until you cannot and dropping in an exhausted heap. You have no energy to respond to anything with, nor even to think clearly. But it is not despair, and it is never depressing. It is only that all that was, is and could be no longer exist; it has been wiped out and written over with something new. It obscures.
Reading Bloom is a bit like that. One becomes so exhausted, or at least I do, with working through his increasingly complicated theories and dense wording, one drops and can no longer even manage the turning of a page. The inspiration is gone, the energy largely lacking, one is left feeling as if one has no meaning at all.
That, is what Bloom’s theory of kenosis is doing, the offspring poet removes all meaning from his precursor and leaves their shade empty. That shade will fade into obscurity know by only a few faithful followers who disagree that the offspring has succeeded his sire, has defeated his precursor on the chosen field and out done him. Those faithful few and his failures, those who tried to out do the sire will remember an know and drown in jealousy at the successor, until they too, shall fade out of memory. That I suppose is the ultimate success; completely erasing the existence of the precursor, until only old ghosts, silent in their graves remain, unseen and unheard by the people of the present.
Have I succeeded in draining Bloom of all his ego and inspiration? No, most likely not, for he has, as is usual, left me in an exhausted heap and wondering at my daring. What had I been thinking? Oh, yes, I was running off of desperation, frustration, and temper. Desperation, as this essay is due in less than four hours; frustration, as this man frustrates my understanding of him and theory; and temper, which generally runs hand in hand with frustration. I am typically an even tempered person but this calls has shown me that this is not so. My own faults have been exposed rather than this precursor that I am following. How apropos.
Bloom has kicked me in the teeth and laughed at me, left me feeling drained of thought and energy. How can I dare to hand this essay in? Because I must. I would rather hate to fail as I am graduating next weekend and this essay is my final and a good chunk of my grade. Thus I will leave you, in defeat, and become a shade myself. For a while, at least. I am not going to give up just because theory makes me want to beat my head against the wall. That would be proving that I am a weak writer and I absolutely refuse to accept that. So, now I will dust myself off and fare forward, ready to face whatever is placed before me.
Enough! This has been “done to death by a slanderous tongue.”
-Much Ado About Nothing (V, iii, 3-4)

Group 3

well done. a self help group for characters. what are their lives like when the pages are closed? the narration was a wonderful guide to the movie. i am especially fond of the neo and the prospero.

Group 2

as usual sams group just blew us out of the water. it was... interesting. hilarious, abstract and slightly odd at times yet carried the messages well.

i can't say much about it because, as i said, out of the water

Group 4

the play was interesting. hilarious really that it eventually meant that the trip was poinless except on a personal level. i liked the alice in wonderland, finnegans wake, hamlet cross (only without the melancholy and dying). another play i would not mind seeing on the stage

Group 5 presentation

our project was enabled by Rio, Give him all thanks and praise and allow him a week of sleep.

i choose to use lady Hawke for several reasons. One, it was the only one on my shelf that hand anything to do with returning to somewhere. somehow i don't think AVP and AVP2 Princess Mononoke, chronicles of Riddick, godzilla or the Underworld trilogy count. as you can see i like scifi cheesy horror movies. and two it applies (even as low brow as it is). the movie itself is about this kid, a thief, who escapes from the bastile and eventually runs into this cursed knight and his equally cursed lady love. the knight is a man by day and a wolf by knight, the lady is a hawk by day and a woman by night. you can see how the relationship is complicated. anyway, they were cursed by this bishop who was obsessed with the lady and decided if he couldn't have her no one would.

anyway there's a rollicking adventure and they make their way back to the bastille on the day of an eclipse and confront the bishop, thus breaking the curse.

all in all it's actually quite funny, if sappy and cheesy.

anyway dolce domum, returning and knowing the place for the first time. yeah, i guess thats one way of looking at it.

and i used the last section of East Coker to illustrate the point.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Final...yeah

Lead, Gold and the Immortal Soul
We all know that alchemy is the ‘science’ of transmuting lead into gold, yeah? Ern! Wrong, or at least not completely right, there is that little bit of economical gain to it but it is not the entirety of it. Alchemy is a purification. But it is not just a transformation of earthly elements but ethereal ones as well. By ethereal I mean spiritual, the soul. Yes it is a transformation and purification of the human soul; immortal it may be, unchanging it is not.
While the Philosopher’s Stone may produce the Elixir of Life and turn lead into gold with a touch, soul alchemy is not so simple. Though making the Stone probably took a while. Anyway there is a five step program, sort of, for the alchemical purification of the soul. It is represented by five birds: Black Crow, White Swan, Peacock, Pelican and Phoenix. The Crow represents the first step which is to free oneself from dependence on the physical world and senses. The Swan, step two, is the realization of the ethereal form, meaning soul. The Peacock, step three, means stretching the soul or becoming conscious of it, a little different from step two as that is more like looking in the mirror and seeing a fuzzy impression, where step three is more along the lines of realizing you have black hair or blue eyes. Step four, the Pelican, is stretching out the spiritual muscles. And finally, step five, the Phoenix, legendary firebird of death and rebirth, which is a purificaiton in itself, the soul is freed from the physical body.
But it is not death. It’s more like astral projection… kind of… maybe… huh…
Maybe not. Maybe the Phoenix step is death, maybe that is the least step for the purification. Being “consumed by either fire or fire” (Eliot 57). Fire is a purifier, Eliot thinks so. Beckett empties the soul, Joyce fills it up, Shakespeare drowns it… hmmm.
The soul, the soul, the soul is the most expensive thing a human being can trade, sell, but you cannot really sell a soul, only give it away. A soul can be exchanged for something of equal value, but it is priceless. Hmmm. Quite the conundrum I have created for myself.
Anyway the crow is a symbol of trickery and death, of the darker side of human emotions and actions. Here it seems to mean a sacrifice of the physical world and desires. To step back and dismiss the ego and selfishness of human nature, to sacrifice and remove the soul from the physical human. The five physical senses are dismissed in favor of exploring the sixth ethereal sense.
The white swan, usually pictured in flight, one experiences the form of the soul, be it tinier than the head of a pin, or wider than the vastness of the universe. Can a soul be measured thus? Does it have a ‘physical’ form that can be measured? If a soul has no cost then how can it be measured? The swan is a lighter symbol, often with romantic connotations and divine partnership, soul mates maybe. This is the start of the transformation from pure physicality and tainted humanity into the absolute divine purity of the human soul. The ‘yuck’ of humanity is starting to be wiped away.
The peacock is a symbol of resurrection and immortality, here humanity becomes enamored of the beauty of the soul as they are enamored with the beauty of a peacock. This is the transformation in progress. One immerses oneself in the soul, which lacks human frailties and emotions stepping into the level of the angelic, I suppose. They are also a symbol of omnipotence, the all seeing eyes of their tail feathers. They see all and know all that ever was, is, or will be… Muahahaha!
Hmhmn. Sorry. Right, pelican. Usually shown carving its own heart out of its chest, the soul begins stretching its wings, and being all… soul-ly. It is another resurrection symbol. Hmm. Anyway, the carving thing is the bird spilling its own blood to feed its chicks. This is sacrifice, now the human begins to sacrifice not just the superficial but the deeper parts of the self that taint, or maybe restrict. As the pelican sacrifices the blood the human sacrifices the important things to themselves. Family friends, treasured people and bonds are given up in order to prepare the self for the final step of the transformation.
Phoenix. A largely light symbol and the representation of the cycle of death and rebirth, the fire, the purifier. The Resurrection, the Immortality, being reborn from the ashes of it’s own collective ‘yuck’ it rises once again pure and untainted. The fire bird is a world wide symbol from ancient Egypt to Japan to the Aztec. Usually associated with the sun, whose alchemical symbol also represents gold, one burns away the flesh and remains, or perhaps returns to the pure soul form free of the physical world and the boundaries therein.
You know I’m starting to get a little suspicious, three of these symbols have to do with resurrection. Maybe this whole soul purification thing isn’t purification but resurrection. What if we are trying to revive our own souls that got so caught up in humanity and being human that they slowly stagnated and died, or worse drowned. No. That’s not right either. We killed our own souls by doing very human things, being distracted and impure. We have not stretched our wings and they are too weak to help us fly. Like a starling with broken wings, we can either throw ourselves off the limb and attempt to fly or let go and fall to our terrible and wasted deaths.
What a terrible fate we have laid our for ourselves.
As I said earlier Joyce tried to put all of humanity’s nonsense into one book which turned into a never ending cycle with a pause between two words. Beckett went the opposite and tried to stop talking, he poured out his words until there were no more left to use. He stripped each sense and talked and talked about it until he could say no more. Sucking stones; it really makes me want to giggle.
Hmm, but really can a soul actually be tainted? I do not think so. You can probably bury it under so much muck (human stuff and distractions) but I do not think it can be tainted. Souls are pure… whatever the hell they are, energy, ectoplasmic matter/antimatter, whatever. They are not a physical thing. So they cannot be buried either nor weighed down but the best idea I can come up with is buried. A soul can be buried under all the human distractions and human frailties and faults, it can be turned away from and shoved into the farthest darkest corner of the self. But can it be tainted?
No, you know what this is? This is a resurrection.
Resurrection quite literally means ‘to rise’ or ‘rise again.’ This processess is not about reviving or purifying the soul, it is about unburying it and allowing it to rise once more, to reach again for the sun. The phoenix rises from its ashes, it is not reborn from them, not really, because a phoenix is immortal and does not die. So rather its physical form is purified in a burst of flame, the ashes settle, covering, and the fire bird rises once more through them. Rebirth implies death, resurrection implies that there is merely a burial. And that what was buried may and will be unearthed.
So the soul will be resurrected after being buried by the human who was “distracted from distraction by distraction” (Eliot 17). Sacrificing those distractions and bonds resurrects the soul.
Prospero drowns his books. I am uncertain if this is a Crow or a Phoenix but am leaning toward the latter. Why? He asks the audience to release him “from [his bands]/ with the help of [our] good hands” (Shakespeare 163). What I find interesting is that he asks the audience to release him as if he cannot do it himself? Too tired, perhaps? Or maybe no human can pull off that final release alone. Perhaps it is not possible to Phoenix oneself. Perhaps a guiding hand is necessary. No person in any of the books we have read has taken any of these five steps alone. Prospero released Ariel, the Audience releases Prospero, Hamlet and Horatio, Molloy and Malone (not really together but working off one another), Santiago and the various people (the alchemist amongst them) who helped him along).
So if one cannot resurrect alone, then how can one resurrect at all? The process requires that a person give up all things earthly so that the soul can take flight. Is this process, perhaps, impossible? Or perhaps, like Arjuna, one must become objective to it all, not merely give it up. Krishna commanded that Arjuna fight because that was his duty, that those bonds were less important than that. I think he might have been right.
In order to resurrect the soul, which is a heavy but necessary duty, one must become objective even as one remains bound. The bonds are important, but action and duty come first, even at the cost of such things. It is a sacrifice that a person must make. But just because those earthly senses are given up does not mean that they do not still exist. Humans are, after all, terribly social creatures. We cannot give up on one another. Even hermits come down from the mountain once in a while and sages get visited by whoever makes it up to them. Apparently one cannot give up all earthly bonds. I think it might be part of the free will thing.
At any rate this process, workable or not, is something people choose to undergo, it is something that must be taken up freely otherwise it will definitely never work. Besides this makes something more pure, more sacred, if one chooses to sacrifice instead of simply being sacrificed. Jesus chose to hang from his cross, Vietnam soldiers choose to save their buddies as opposed to themselves, Prospero choose to drown his books, Hamlet choose to die.
Damn. This is starting to sound like my Capstone final. What a drag.
Though I suppose they are the same thing, the alchemical purification is very similar to the human sacrifice. Each is wiping out one thing in order to reveal another, each is giving up something of less value for something of priceless/near priceless value.
Humans burned witches at the stake to purify them, they burned their dead, and still do to purify the flesh and return it to the earth. Fire is one of the most well known purifiers in the world. Every historical reference states fire destroys and purifies, and most, if not all, cultures have a phoenix reference. I cannot say if this is a coincidence or if someone somewhere is playing with us. I am not sure which I prefer, crazy deity/thing, or humans sharing brains. Well, there is something about humans knowing all memories of everyone, everywhere and every when, cultural memory or maybe it was genetic memory. Hmm. No, it’s not cultural it’s the genetic one. Passed down through the DNA that all humans and animals share, though I doubt that animals understand exactly what is going on due to the lack of a higher conscious. But genetic memory… Hmm.
Back to alchemy. The rose, Eliot is very fond of his rose. Once the symbol of passion and purity with the additional paradoxical nature of being the symbol of divine perfection and earthly desires, life and death, fertility and virginity. Quite the complexity, no? Roses are secrets. The secrets of the world are all held within the rose and that is why the “the fire and the rose are one” (Eliot 59). The fire reveals the rose, the world’s secrets. Or perhaps it reveals the anima mundi. With the purity of the fire and the secret of the rose all things are revealed, all souls revealed, and all things become divine. Rather they return to the divine. Eliot knew this, knew that the secrets of the world would be held in a sing blooming rose and the fire.
The Rosicrucian, crossed rose, is the purification, the phoenix where in all dissolves the world is revealed anew. It is the finality, the renewal, and the beginning.
So, it is not a matter of purification, for souls cannot be tainted, it is a matter of resurrection and revelation. “And all shall be well and all manner of things shall be well” because while it is something of a duty it is also something one cannot not do, and once started it is unstoppable. Simplicity, do this, merely live and fare forward.
“I learned that the world has a soul, and that whoever understands that soul can also understand the language of things. I learned that many alchemists realized their destinies, and wound up discovering the Soul of the World, the Philosopher’s Stone, and the Elixir of Life. But above all, I learned that these things are all so simple they could be written on the surface of an emerald.” The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Sunday, April 11, 2010

alchemy and souls

birds represent souls in alchemy but apparently there is actual soul alchemy and a step by step process in purifying the soul... eerie.

anyway

1.Black Crow/Raven- first step retreat from the physical world into dark inner world of soul. (enter in)

2. White Swan- light enters the inner world of soul. is merely first conscious encounter with inner world not true illumination. (look around)

3. Peacock- Colors and awareness of spiritual forces(?)(poke around)

4. Pelican- active working with soul forces. must sacrifice and nourish own soul forces.(?)(tinker and water houseplants)

5. Phoenix- absolute actualization of soul forces. the body is no longer necessary. (set up shop)

or as the page puts it.

"BLACK CROW - withdrawal - freeing of the from depend ence on the Physical senses

PHOENIX - freeing of the spirit from the bounds of the physical

WHITE SWAN - experience of the etheric body

PELICAN - using consciously the forces of the etheric body

PEACOCK - astral body consciousness - inward immersion - point of transformation - outward expression integration - purification - transmutation"

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Thesis

OK thesis for this. or atleast idea for the thesis. i want to discuss the idea of Alchemy and the Soul and that reading is a form of transmutation to the divine level...

...stupid?

well we'll just have to see.

oh, and i'm glad i'm not the only one to immediately think of FMA the moment alchemy came up!!! Kudos for those who did!!!

FW

i have reached the 628th pg of FW. and i absolutely loathe myself for putting myself through this. now i just have to post all of my notes (they're hand written). i have been considering burning my brain but must now move on.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Matrix

its been over a month since i last blogged.

Matrix. hmm, i suppose the matrix is the containment. it contains everything, moves it, adjusts it, fiddles with it. it never stops. but once you remove the matrix you have everything, All, within your senses. the matrix is what protects people from having a constant epiphany, which would drive them mad, eventually. the removal of that shield/container is the epiphany.

so the matrix both keeps humans from Great Discoveries and shields us from them. sort of a neutral party then.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Finn

finn in old Irish means white...
so it's not just end again it's white again, and clean again, like white washing a wall to do something different.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

FW

"Bhagafat gaiters"35
Bhagavagita (spelling?)

"execration"35
execution, desecration, bit of both?

"K.O. Sempatrick's Day"35
knock out saint patrick's day? killed off?

"O'Mara"40
irish cream? or is it O'Malley... pretty sure it's O'Mara

honestly i have no idea who any of these people are, so many names and things... i'm loosing my mind.

"united states of Scotia Picta" 43
pictish scotland? thats pre 10th century. they were taken over by the romans and absorbed by the majority of scotland and scottish people.

FW

"a pen no weightier not a polepost" pg 13

for some reason i keep getting pen and sword.
either that or pens and post 'n pole are involved

"dabblin bar" 16

dabbling bar? Dublin bar?

"face to face" very bottom of 18
the f's are sideways and capital... i don't think i get it.

"Mark the Twy" 22
i really wanna say mark twain, twy=two=twain but i'm probably wrong.

"zephiroth" 29
modern gaming reference or maybe the reverse... anyway Final Fantasy VII
also Zephyr a god of the west wind

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

FW 1-4

a battle, a battle that reminds me eerily of Troy "fornicationists"...

hmm...

plus he writes with an Irish accent... it's quite funny

FW in point

"Just this: not text, but texture; not the dream
But topsy-turvical coincidence,
Not flimsy nonsense, but a web of sense."
-Nabokov, Pale Fire

this is FW in point. sensical nonsense, comprehensible nonsense and yet i cannot make sense of it.

though i do like Thomas's idea of picking out something on each page. no i probably wont do that no worries, no stealing

Monday, January 25, 2010

Getting Started

Well now i'm finally getting around to posting.
anyway i have permission to wander my way through finnegan's wake and with "the Rocky Road to Dublin" playing in the back ground i can tell you that within the first thirty pages i have somehow managed to find the Demon Barber of Fleet Street, Killroy, King Arthur, The German Sub the Bismark, Mutt and Jeff, the Isle of Mann and the fact that it's all told with and irish accent.

Now let's get down to business